Bad, bad day.

We all have bad days.  It just seems that I have more of them.  Today i'm feeling so blah and hopeless.  I did what needed to be done, but nothing extra.  I'm still recovering from the rejection I felt the other night.  I'm used to rejection by this point.  Honestly being 21 and already having gone through so much rejection and turmoil; i'm just used it.  In a way i've become attatched to the heartache.  I just thought maybe this time it'd be different, but i'm not different so why would it be?  I've given up on expecting anything from this world.  I have a few that i'm close to, and I hang on for them.  There's really not much to write.  I'm just empty.  Empty and alone.  I'm not accepted.  I'm not desired, and i'm not happy.  People talk.  They don't understand, and they never will.  That's fine with me.  I'm just done.  I'll go through the motions, do what's expected of me, then sleep.  If I can make a routine of that then i'll be just like every other robot on this planet.  There's room for the people who don't think, never room for those of us who do.  Locking your mind in a box only defeats it.  People need to learn to think, and imagine things that seem impossible, because that's how they come to be.  I feel like i'm meant to achieve something through this blog, but I haven't yet figured out what that is.