I have a horrid headache that's been creeping it's way in for about a day now. It's just finally evolved into a full-blown migraine. The added stress of the Holidays aren't helping much. I miss when I was young, and everything seemed so easy. Now I dread this time of year. Between the migraine, nausea, and general dislike for the stress this time of year brings, i'm not a happy camper right now. I'm edgy, and annoyed, and really not in any mood for drama. I just wish I had somebody, but that feels like something way out of my grasp. I'm used to rejection, not used to being accepted. I don't imagine that I will ever be accepted, and quite honestly that's fine. Just wish someone was holding me right now. Instead i'm sitting here alone feeling miserable and wondering how much i'm actually even needed in this world. I'd like to think that people couldn't go on without me, we all would like to think that, but in reality i'm sure the world would keep turning and people would keep fighting..and really nothing much would change except my not being here.
I hope tomorrow is a better day. I hope a miracle happens and a man actually desires me and treats me with respect. I'm not really sure how it feels to be treated that way, because i'm so used to being treated like garbage that can just be thrown away by men.
Anyway, I hope this headache at least passes soon.
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